While I now spend lots of time trying to figure out why the world is so focused on work/job/money, as a kid I just jumped into the working world, cutting lawns, et cetera. In my underaged landscaping role, I spent a fair amount of time trying to eradicate those evil yellow flowers with the ugly jagged leaves. Continue reading “who decides on dandy?”
Desire-less, 17
Desire-less, 16
I do not desire that anyone see my photos of the towers on Sept. 11, 2001, or the art I made in reaction in the following months when we went to war.
Desire-less, 11 and on
On day 11, I realized that because I was posting this practice of identifying and sidestepping desires, I was actually judging my desires and found them to be getting boring. That gave me day 11’s desire to avoid:
I do not desire more interesting desires.
I figured I would augment the interest factor by grouping, so here are the following several days and letting go of the results from a symmetry point-of-view.
Desire-less, 12
I do not desire a Vespa.
Desire-less, 13
I found myself frustrated Saturday by the number of big things I was trying to fit in. I reached the point of crapping out and heard myself saying, ‘I never have enough hours in a day to do all the things I want.’
I do not desire more hours in the day.
(p.s. after I said this to myself, I went and did all the things I was planning, including Daria Fain’s project at DNA.)
Desire-less, 14
Yesterday, I saw someone who reminded me of a long-ago crush that was unrequited. I was swept into a minute-long reminiscence of the longing and the behavior it let me to. Then it took me into a future where I mentioned the crush to the object and imagined how her response would feel.
I do not desire the requiting of long-ago crushes.
Desire-less, 15
I devote a lot of attention to issues of utopia, and my yoga pursuits combine a call to groundedness with a recognition of the malleability of the physical realm through working at the energetic level. Sometimes my desires for money to have less influence over people’s actions takes on truly Sisyphusian levels, ruining days at a time.
I do not desire a world without market incentive.
Desire-less, day 10
I passed Liev Shreiber as I was leaving class today. I did not take a picture.
I do not desire celebrities (seeing them, knowing them, hanging with them).
Desire-less, 9th day
A ho!*
6:45am Berlin Mountain, New York. I drove up over the rise having just passed the woodchuck. A huge doe bounded across the road in front of me. As I shifted focus past her, I spotted the full white moon in the blue sky. A crow with a three-foot wingspan sailed past the moon before wafting over the trees.
*’a ho’ is a Native American exclamation of praise, wonder and agreement.